(((another yesterday…)))

<recently finished a cup of right-on-time hot decaf coffee…>

thoughts, sensations, perceptions — phenomena…
(like noise… meaningless until interpreted (funny on an-other level with “Noise” being a former nickname))

breathe. notice. rest in awareness…
(did i remember the ellipses after ‘phenomena’? yes)

open, aware, present… whatever is happening… nothing excluded… here/now/this…
(thinking about Veterans Affairs, social support systems, disability rating-to-benefits relationships, seeing to wrestle briefly with the uncertainty of it all and observing the (apparent) impact of that uncertainty on other thoughts and sensations — a cascade of sorts…
everything is fine now…
nothing that can’t be figured out or adapted to…
with a “job” being Liz (link) in this case… work? serving a friend — who happens to be able to provide financial compensation for doing so…
so would i do it anyway?
absolutely.)

being is enough…
(worthiness, shame…)

… an unconditional yes to experiencing it/at all…
(it all, at all, it at all…)

well then…
fine, i guess…
shame and worthiness…
“i don’t deserve this…” “i have too much…” “i have it too easy compared to others…” “i am not worthy of a good, simple, peaceful life…” ((then)) something like “if everyone else is swimming in the mud and… shouldn’t i…?” and then “okay, but if swimming in the mud is undesiredable for some reason, in order to figure out a way out, do you turn to someone swimming with you or someone on the shore?
maybe both!
power in common vision and goal…
collectively reaching for the shore while simultaneously being reached for, only to find there was never any distance…”

wandered off…

something about deservingness/worthiness/shame/doing-enough/contributing meaningfully — experiencing all of that without attachment to any of it, including and attachment(s) to non-attachment…
(natural pause…)