(((another yesterday…)))
are cats friends?
ownership/possesion? feeding? grooming?
frequent cuddles, scratches, rubdowns?
exceptforspontaneouslynotthistime!
does that sound like “friends”? (😂)
I seem to exist.
what I think most people are probably referring to when they speak of god or whatever — presence, awareness, etc. (which seems to somehow exist/not-exist/both/neither/all that — beyond even — inconceivable, apparently) — seems, somewhat experientially(, but even intellectually it would make sense - that some-‘thing’ that is everything would be excluding nothing including this…) to be… present… in the capacity to (even) be aware of this(, for example)…
(for a hot dense state to have evolved over apparently billions of years into something that can experience communication with and conscious creation with and of itself… (for example))
if that’s what it is, or even if it’s just that also, is it not also then this?
are we (me and you) not it (also)?
(no idea what temperature the tea will be at at this point 😂…>
so i’m in the shower, having a good time just rubbing everything down under falling water…
when i started to wonder about closing my eyes and following the sensations in the absence of a referential body…
and that was interesting if not a bit abstract without describing as tingling or pressure, like little invisible clouds of feeling traveling around in this visually mostly empty space…
and then something like “what about BeatSaber? isn’t it kinda like that? what if the sensations were imagined as blocks being sliced through as they arise (and) move around in this (‘)space(‘)?
so i’m showering, eyes closed, rubbing myself down, imagining all of the little muscle movement(s), changes in position, skin sensations and sounds (— all) blocks being felt as they’re sliced through…
playing a game in mind while showering…
… noticing the appearance of the imagined game “improving” (becoming clearer, easier to see and follow) as being imagined more consistent(ly) (practiced)…
and then the thought…
how do i know,
when i open my eyes,
that i am not instantly doing the same thing,
(just) now with the input of visual information?
how can one know that this isn’t being equally, though perhaps much more clearly (and convincingly)(lots of practice), essentially imagined?
(by the brain of all of its inputs if preferred…)
all about body movement & sensation experience today so far…
purposefully exploring sore and tight areas by stretching into them sloooowly…..
paying attention to how the rest of the body is moving as it rests itself into a near-final position —
the maximum available stretch of this one little area…
how can this stretch (position/sensation) be maintained while letting every other possible muscle relax?
arms just kind danglin’? let them go…
shoulders? neck? knees? feet? abdomen, hips, low-back?
how much can this be relaxed into?
what remains?
how does the stretch feel?
not painful exactly…
no need to go that far, but…
do “tight” or “stretch” really describe it?
eyes closed…
what does it feel like?
and then shower time… 😂
(unintentionally back around… love that… 🥰)