(((bursts…)))
in(hale) slowly, quietly, as deeply as comfortably possible or desired…
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consider not immediately exhaling if not necessary…
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ex(hale) slowly, quietly, as completely as comfortably possible or desired…
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consider not immediately inhaling if not necessary…
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consider relaxing anything that can be relaxed…
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consider mildly stretching anything that might stand out or feel tight…
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consider noticing any arising inclination to chase sensations…
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consider relaxing anything that can be relaxed…
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consider all this considering happening…
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consider relaxing anything that can be relaxed…
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making such a big deal about a few cycles around a star somewhere in a billions-of-years-old potentially infinite universe…
11:11
enjoying coffee while still hot…
considering chasing flavors, movement, distraction, sensation…
is there (here) a chaser of such? a chooser of pursuing?
sometimes the body seems to respond immediately to what seems like thought decisions, but sometimes it takes some convincing, so is it thought or the body that chooses, and based on what in either case?
if “choices” are primarily the result of the unconscious interpretation more than 95% unremembered experiences, then what is the experience of “choice” but to allow thinking to believe it’s in control of the body and mind…
“like a dinghy “choosing” its direction in an endless ocean…”
(“looking for land? other dinghies?”)
tight left hip, outer socket down to lateral left knee, like iliotibial band but deeper…
half through now extremely warm coffee…
maybe this will be it today… just these little notes… bursts…
a little used summer clothing online shopping spree seemingly generating some excitement (little packages on the way, the risk of potentially going over budget (and doing it anyway), bright new colors and patterns, etc.) and also some distraction (professional/personal/social circumstances, physical and mental health evaluations, honey-do-list items, etc.)…
(some of the little packages just arrived…)
thoughts, sensations, perceptions — phenomena…
breathe. notice. rest in awareness…
(chatting with Sherri about grocery order cheese options while typing these out…)
open, aware, present… whatever is happening… (“crumbled goat cheese”)… nothing excluded… here/now/this…
… an (“fresh mozzarella? extra sharp cheddar?”) unconditional yes to experiencing it/at all…
(love you) 💖