(((commitment…)))

is obligatory reason enough? obligation to whom? self-care? perceived consistency(/commitment)? overcoming (perceived) laziness or avoidance?

thoughts, sensations, perceptions — phenom-ena…
(if i were to genuinely attempt to write all the things that attempt to interject, this would (potentially) never end…)

breathe…
(remember… <deep breaths…>)

notice…
(which doesn’t inherently mean “cling to”, “follow”, or even “write down”)

rest in aware-ness…
(not sure what to ad to this one)

open, aware, present…
(thoughts of describing circumstances, surroun-dings, sensations (both direct physical observations and interpretations as emotions (“feelings”)))

<<dunch with Sherri and her mom and kitchen cleanup…>>

whatever is happening…
(but what is actually happening? how does one “see through” inherently limited perception? stop perceiving?)

nothing excluded…
(perhaps not intentionally, but how much do i not know that i don’t know?)

here/now/this…
(as if the lack of direct knowledge/experience of everything equates somehow to its ex-clusion from everything (like “how can i say ‘nothing excluded’ while/if i am subjectively experiencing so little? am i actually experiencing “little”? in what context? is it more about allowing as in “whatever comes”?”)

being is enough…
(except what about food, shelter, clothing? are they not essential to “being” ((continuing “being” at least))? physically, perhaps, but it’s at least possible that “being” is not confined to a physical form…)

… an unconditional yes to experiencing it/at all…
(some-thing ((like)) “increasing introspection = increasing uncertainty (in general, about all things) = increasing sensations (perceptions) of anxiousness and depression, both (all) of which, while admittedly difficult/challenging/exhaust-ing, etc., are not resisted but welcomed and explored ((which is) the exhausting part) which is expressed as increasing introspection)

(love) 💕