(((kitchen sink…)))
rinsing out a bottle over the kitchen sink:
“i pro-bably won’t/can’t know all the ‘why’s’ for every-thing. like why this fascination with motivation for saying or doing anything? what all is floating around in the 95+% of mental activity of which i am con-sciously unaware? what established any patterns am-ong said activity?
observation? experience?
in what context was it being observed or experienced that led to any such patterns ((and how was any such context established))?
why this consciousness “in” this body?
is there some capacity in which these per-spectives and perceptions are meant to be collectively useful, or is it perhaps just a matter of the variabil-ity/uniqueness of being?
what was the first lens thru which experience was filtered and stored? before any vocabulary existed to classify and categorize it?
safe-ty? survival? dependance? uncertainty?
and what did it eventually become? how did it influence subsequ-ent perceptions and perceived decisions?
how did this come to be this?
fear? desire? attachment? aversion?
why anything?
would knowing make any diff-erence? would knowing really be knowing, or would it not necessarily still be perceptions through what-ever filter(s) is/are present at present?
why this consciousness and this body?
why ask why?
who asks why?
who asks who?
is there an ultimate source of any of this? and what difference would that make?
lol… probably depends of one’s perception…”
thinking, sensing, perceiving — phenomena…
breathing…
noticing…
being…
(why meaning-making? why creativity? why love? why gravity? why matter? why space? why time? why awareness? why thinking? why memory? why imagination? why survival? why growth? why multiplic-ation? why consciousness? why life?)
open, aware, present…
whatever is…
nothing excluded (including exclusion)…
here…
now…
this…
being…
… an unconditional yes to experiencing (this)…
💕
i wonder (wondering) if questions simply provide some sort of seemingly forward-moving directional momentum… a way in which to look, an opportunity for (the experience of) the hope of potential discovery/novelty, uncertainty, possibility…
like why did this get added?
perceived relevance? context? continuity? or maybe just more to wonder about — who’s doing what, how, and why and all that…