(((knowing…)))

doing this mostly just to feel like it’s done… (smiled at Liz’s random snoring sounds) feels as though a lot of thinking is happening simultaneously and incoherently. louder-than-usual “static.” hard to tell how even these words are being discerned well enough to write them…
perhaps uncertainty is the most common ((natural?))… state? and “knowledge” is simply one of the many appear-ances of ignorance. what is really known? what even can be?

thoughts, sensations, perceptions — phenomena…
(even this)

breathe…
<deep breaths…>

notice…
(what? thoughts? sensations? appearances? movement? change? assumptions? absence? silence? stillness? what? all of it? any of it? noticing? what even is any of this? what is this now?)

rest in awareness…
(rest? awareness? the ((“))activity((“)) of inactivity?)

open, aware, present…
(circumstances? details? one whole… thing?)

whatever is happen-ing…
(what is actually happening at all?)

nothing excluded…
(what is “nothing” to be excluded? is anything separate from everything? what actually is with any certainty? what is certainty but confid-ence in interpretation? “grounding (organizing, stabilizing) the dream (chaos?)?”)

here/now/this…

being is enough…
sometimes even seemingly “too much” ((and yet all seems to continue)))

… an unconditional yes to experiencing it/at all…
(even to the experience of ‘no’; even to the “experience” of non-experience (existence))

all still just symbols, sounds, nothing…

(love) 💕