(((nonsense…)))

(subtitle: title idea brought about a smile (😊))

wondering/wandering/pondering the point…
science and spiritually seem (to point) toward an absence of any truly fixed “self” as well as to a sort of fundamental “oneness” of things, even if at just an everything-influences((ing))-everything kind of way.
and then words, all these made up words… and speaking of making up, that’s apparently what this brain is doing right now((;)) painting a picture of a pen, a notebook ((presently a laptop)), some hands, a body a chair, a room, sunlight, all interactive explanations of the sensations it’s been tasked with inter-preting — physiological imagination of a best interpretation of ((“))reality((“)).
so we’ve got no self. non-existent inside (as?) an illusion (somehow) of our own making, thinking it’s the seemingly individual experience that ((is)) proves proving our individual existence((s)).

anyway…
and then words…
combinations of made up sounds (and shapes) carrying semi-shared understanding of/agreement on (made up) meanings… i mean…
no self in a dream pretending to be communicating any-thing…
prove me wrong… (smile)((😊))
anyway…

thoughts, sensations, perceptions — phenomena…
(the above essentially being the “root” of what are (or seem to be) being perceived as abnorm-alities or “issues.” as it stands presently, these “understandings” are incorrectible ((made up word)), except to say that they, too, are but nonsense from noone to 
“them”/“my(/“it”) “self”…

thoughts, sensations, perceptions — phenomena…
((just now realizing this was repeated…))
(recalling contemplation of potential addiction to exp-eriencing thinking and feeling broadly speaking((;)) a fascination with the capacity to of life to think and feel at all along with an apparent, potentially unending desire to explore it — to somehow think and feel every-thing (<— love these unintentional word breaks) ever possible to think or feel — ((potentially)) infinite expression…
complete (and total) “self” comprehension…
that’s if, of course, “self” is thinking and/or feeling…

anyway…
(fascinating)

breathe. notice. rest in awareness…
<breathe…>
whatever is happening…
(enjoying the handwritten line above ending with “whatever is”)
… nothing excluded…
(is it though?)
… here/now/this…
(is it though?)

being is enough (ah! is it though?)…

… an unconditional yes to experiencing it/at all…
(yeah, good luck with that…)

made up sounds and symbols sending (made up) messages to…
even these…

((quick summary: no self, imagined (body/mind/)world, all is one, words are meaningless (and experiencing might be a bit addictive (regardless of the meaninglessness of any sounds or symbols attempting to be used to describe it), and any-way, how could mere words ever adequately describe the entirety of this — whatever this now is?
aaand they’re meaningless anyway…
again, even these…