(((this morning…)))
<two sips of hot coffee>
(how to begin?)((good subtitle!))
thoughts, sensations, perceptions — phenomena…
breathe. notice. rest in awareness…
open, aware, present… whatever is happening… nothing excluded… here/now/this…
being is enough…
(here… this… even this pen which continues sputtering(sp?) even though i know there’s ink in there…
should i just start typing now or am i determined to keep handwriting for a bit?
why either one?
(just for fun? (winky emoji)((😉))))
hang on…
<replacing (pen) ink cartridge…>
(okay, so it seems a choice has been made…)
… an unconditional ‘yes’ to the fact of experie-ncing at all…
(reminding myself (while pouring coffee through a small wire-mesh strainer into a 20oz twenty-ounce rainbow metallic insulated stainless tumbler (near which i now sit)) not to forget the opening (mantra) again this morning.
two previous (days) of kind of still remembering it, but not remembering to write it out…
BeatSaber
(actually thinking about titling(sp?) this “this morning…” again and letting them all start to become undifferentiated — “never know what you’re gonna get.” (smiley emoji)((🙂))
Houdini by Eminem, Abracadabra by Lady Gaga, Time, Believer, Thunder and Radioactive by Imagine Dragons - still Expert+, mostly practice mode, from 60-85%
looking ahead, thinking about other stuff while playing ((whacking away! (ha!))) , thinking about writing and thinking about thinking about writing and other stuff while playing…
also noticing some of the lyrics occasionally (laughing emoji)((😂)) and asking “…
<gotta get ready to go… >
<link to SubStack post (title?)>
so much has happened(sp? one n?) since then…
cruising through morning routines thinking about a million (exaggeration probably) other things with an occasional “scooping coffee beans””grinding lefty (manually) to stimulate the right hemisphere””rinsing dish, loading dish””petting cat””sh-aking vitamin drink””left(y) again””switching back and forth””just enough””just enough water left in the shiny chr polished filtered water containe-r””thanks universe, that was cute. :) ☺️ “”refill-ing container””putting away dish(es)””refill-ing container””putting away dish(es)””multitas-king?”
<grinning at that hyphenate(word?)((yep, apparently))>
“scooping litter””vacuuming litter remnants (originally ‘remnance’)””folding washcloths””automatic seeming””can we break it down?””grab, lift, reorient, fold, stack… (repeat)””what do the involved muscles feel like?””can their sensations be isolated?””doesn’t seem so””the whole body moves with just the hand even — changes in balance (serendipitous? (between)) and center — the whole body doing every movement””how slowly can i go?””holy crap, that’s slow...””we’re kinda on a schedule here””folding washcloths”
<washcloths put away, coffee and water bottle collected, ‘favorite’ seat taken settled into, two sips of hot coffee enjoyed>
((refer to beginning))(;?)
this loop structure did not appear ((reveal itself)) as an idea until (within (ha!)) the last fifteen minutes or so…))(;)?
((10:31am, at ‘work’ now…))