(((unchosen…)))
wondering about thresholds for action…
like what is the point at which this thought became associated with the motivation necessary to write it out, and how did such a point come to be so?
available energy? perceived value? continuity?
all subjective, of course, but what lays even such foundat-ions? anything actually remembered?
no… not really. mostly just assumed normal, rational, whatever, if thought of (considered) at all in moments when what-ever arbitrary thresholds are reached/crossed.
so (apparent) choices then would seem to be based (potentially) primarily on unremembered experiences that now (unconsciously/subconsciously) indicate “this way” or “not that way” and (are) then explained/justified with conscious thinking about internal/external circumstances.
what is the threshold for this?
momentum? expectation?
how has this come to be?
if not influenced ((to some degree at least)) by everything from the very beginning ((like, no one (seemingly) making any choices without the birth of the universe)), are not choices then essentially spontaneous?
and regardless whether choices are the cumulative effect of the totality of experiences or spontaneously arising phenomena, where/what/who is ever actually choosing anything?
like, i didn’t exactly decide that this is finished. it just is…
thinking, sensing, perceiving — phenomena…
breathing…
noticing…
be-ing…
open, aware, present…
whatever is (thoughts, appearances, assumptions, ignorance, uncertainty, res-istance, avoidance, attachment, resignation, withdrawal ((withdraw?)), engagement, introspection, stillness, silence, connect-ion, compassion, openness, acceptance, surrender, peacefullness, presence, absence…)
nothing ex-cluded…
here (wherever/everywhere)…
now (always)…
this (exact everything)…
being is…
… an unconditional yes to experiencing (beginnings, ends, love, joy, pain, loss, pleasure, happiness, grief, depression, anxiety, loneliness, distance, connection, learning, growing, teaching, dying; being isn’t just some… it’s all…)…
💕