(((post this?)))

<thinking, writing, breathing…>

<slightly warm tea>

(fucking mantra! ((title? (laughing emoji)((😂))))


thoughts, sensations, perceptions… phenomena…
(do you ever just get…)

… awareness…

being is enough…
(“get to the good stuff!””is this not already it?”)

… an unconditional yes to experiencing at (it?) all…

hmmm…

<breathing and writing and breathing…>

“tired of thinking?””sure” i mean, is it really worth it for all of the…

<and breathing…>

… anxiety, chaos, confusion, connection, (unintentionally alphabetical), distinction, separation, ((opinion)), sensation (pleasure, pain), emotion (love, hate, anger, passion, excitement, joy, suffering, sadness, depression, ((despair)), rage, fear, shame, guilt, elation, bliss, peace, calm), perception, creation (commotion ((originally ‘comotion(sp?))) it seems to create (cause?) or be associated with or related to in some way?

is thinking really worth all that?

<and breathing…>

prior concept burning in the mind, bursting, for, best guess, the last hour or so…
somewhere in the kitchen when it hit, started to form…
“scooping vitamins””scooping vitamins”
(saying out loud a little bit even…)
“putting(sp?) vitamins away””pouring water””shak-ing vitamins””oooh, pouring water and shaking vitamins!”
((“bothing it!” (laughing emoji)((😂)))))

<<taking afternoon vitamins…>>

noticing how strange it feels to seemingly ‘direct’ the mind’s wandering by simply stating what is happening.
((noticing now that there is no recollection of when, again, conscious attention was eventually directed away from such intentional focus. ‘wandering’ seems to be the a sort of default. ‘exploring’ maybe, if putting(sp?) decisive action into it, but no memory of making any such choice exists…))

<writing and breathing…>

<<talking to Sherri’s mom on the phone…>>

see? it feels more like remembering that than deciding it…
“do i really have the option of just not listening?””doesn’t seem like it…”

is thinking really worth all of this?

doubt, knowingness, togetherness, love (said that already (planned on inserting in advance (this is a bit more spontaneous)))

<writing and breathing…>

<cleaning up cat puke situation, stretching, sitting, writing, breathing, just now remem-bering i have yet to drink any damn tea (laughing emoji)((😂))…

“post this?””whatever the guttural (originally ‘gutteral’) sensational equivalent of ‘ick’ is, so yeah, probably… (laughing emoji)((😂))
“i guess it’s worth it then.” ((smiling emoji))(((😊)))

<writing and breathing…>

(((sharing. (loving.(?)) all of it… (heart-face emoji?)((🥰?))))))
(((trying to(?))))

hm… thinking… as if love is an act… expressing in action often, perhaps,

“wandering off” wandering off…

<writing and breathing…>

“post this?” (eye-roll, wink, big eyes, concerned?, star-eyes, puke face (not literally, just visceral twisting sensations))((🙄😉😳😕🤩🤮)))

<space here (after-thought)>

(((title: post this? (laughing emoji)((😂)))))

<”thinking, writing, breathing” thinking, writing, breathing…> (((subtitle? (star-eyes)((🤩)))))

<:space here (after-thought); tea is finished>

“<slightly warm tea>” (((second subtitle (laughing emoji)((😂)))))