(((some minutes…)))

some minutes enjoying the flavor of the first few sips of still-hot green tea (link? (to “cooling tea”)) and feeling breathing and buzzing muscles after BeatSaber…

<<”dunch” time (link? and to what?) and bathroom break…>>

… (link? (to “this morning”)) and stretching and morning routines (link? and to what?)…
contemplating why writing, as in why write anything? for the pure enjoyment of it? which is true in a way — it certainly can be fun or at least interesting to discover, to experience even for my-self the first arisings of various thoughts, con-cepts, observations (like noticing the inclination to view the unintentional line break between con- and -cepts as meaningful like “concepts are a sort of con”)
just listening to and then reading the mind as it is just allowed to dump, and then this is what comes out.
“but then why share it? what’s that really about?”
something like “hoping it might be helpful in some way to someone, ideally without being harmf-ul to anyone, but then who am i to know what might be (perceived as) potentially helpful or harm-ful to anyone else? and even if helping is completely subjective, is it still worth it to help even just one? wouldn’t it all at least be worth it to them? and what “thems” do i really think are “out there”? if all is “one” and we are all that “one”, aren’t “i” ultimately “helping myself” (in a “larger” sense, if you wish)? and what if, rather than assuming anything needs (or wants) help, or to change in any particular way, all is simply accepted as is?
no more (willful) expectations, for just a second or two even…

willingness to “help” without assumption, writing as joy of expression only, or at least (attempted) clarity when overlap is occurring and willingness to openly accept feedback when such overlaps may have been overlooked, but even this is somewhat subtly designed ((meant/hoping)) to gently encourage en-gagement (wondering what the actual definition of en-gagement is in this context, while not want((ing)) to break to look it up)…

thoughts, sensations, perceptions — phenomena…

breathe. notice. rest in awareness…
<deep breaths…>

open, aware, present… (BeatSaber lineup!)… whatever is happening… (recollection of((ing)) playing through Houdini by Eminem, Stressed Out by 21 Twenty One Pilots, Zombie by Yungblud, and Abracadabra by Lady Gaga (not in that order, though not sure why that would matter either); irrelevant but entertaining)… nothing excluded… (am “i” still looking for something? can the desire to seek/explore be openly accepted as well?)… here/now/this…

being is enough…
(something like “the energy (attention/concentration/focus) that must be required in order to simply exist!)

… an unconditional yes to experiencing it/at all…

<time for (the rest of the) tea…>

(love you)

perhaps it could be said that I am presently in the practice of modify(ing) allow(ing)/accept(ing)/discovering “self” frequency emission as that which encourages and facilitates constructive (physical? psychological? spiritual? other?) reorganization (neither subjectively positive nor negative necessarily; as perceived by… ?), as that of openness to what is and (any and) all possible changes…
if this body is any sort of real and/or functional (in any capacity), may everything thought, said, and done all thinking, speaking, (writing,) and doing be in service to all.

(love you)

((may it be that this is already always the case, as(…) for why would one self ever truly work against one self (regardless of appearance or perception)?))

(((if all is already always in service of all (or if perhaps whether or not it truly ultimately is (in such service) cannot be known), what exactly must be thought, said, written, done?)))

((((love you)))) 💖