(((another day before…)))
so many places to start;
finished tea (for once (while still pretty hot)).
glowing…,
whatever i can’t remember thinking about over the kitchen sink while drinking powdered vit-amin mix (link?)
what else?
thoughts, sensations, perceptions — phenomena…
breathe. notice. rest in awareness…
<“bless you... bless you” in response to Sherri’s multiple sneezes…>
open, aware…
<”please do not feed the quokkas no matter what they say” (laugh)((😂))…>
… present… whatever is happening… nothing excluded… here/now/this…
being is enough…
… an unconditional yes to experiencing it/at all…
website ideas,
to help or not to help?;
even to offer or not to?,
what else?
dead-hang breath-hold pullup variations (really enjoy these)…
maybe more will come, but this is already plenty, now where to go?…
glowing…
an idea for a “shorty” about an interaction with loveliness dropping off groceries… (pasted here:)
glowing…
“i like that color! 😊”
<look of shock, surprise, an unexpected something happening…>
(what does she think i meant by that? her eyes, hair, nails? her skin?
all lovely, actually…
glowing, in fact…)
“your phone case… that’s a pretty pink”
“Oh, thank you!” 😁
noticed a few almost-strong-enough urges to stoptart writing, but think i only broke (don’t really remember deciding, just ended up phone-in-hand) once specifically to write out the above little thingy…
in other words, the tea was finished this morning rather than forgotten/ignored for the sake of getting to the writing (new neurons! (star-eyes)((🤩)))…
still don’t recall the over-the-kitchen-sink thought series, but i do remember the sense of “oh, this is good!” (laugh)((😂))
later remembering to remember the morning ma opening… (laugh)((😂))…
website ideas —
the whole search bar thing — excited to explore that i guess…
dead-hang breath-hold pullup variations:
been thinking about ((describing)) these for a while, or, several times at least…
let’s see if…
so…
regular-ish multi-hand-position pullup bar mounted to the rafters in the garage. as trips are made outside (taking out trash, feeding birds/squirrels, just going ((to)) and from the car even (the garage is detached)), more often then not just one single pullup performed…
wide-grip this time — grab hold, bare hands, dead hang, just toe-tips touching but bearing no weight, letting lungs stretch, not really breathing in or out ((but not really holding breath either)) for just a bit…
hang…
stretch…
pullup slow-ly, exhale slowly, then completely on the way down, forcing emptiness then sealing the airway for a few moments, feeling the negative internal pressure until the body basically says “enough” on its own((…)) still hanging, toes just touching((…)) it get’s intense sometimes…
then open!
BIG (capitalized?) in-hale, arms an((d)) legs reflexively support chest expansion helping suck in every drop of air possible…
hold…
hang…
feel if maybe any muscles are tight that don’t need to be to just hang here…
feel the intensity or the breath-hold building…
the fingers holding on but feeling a bit tingly, a sort of increasing “charge” in the head/brain…
“am i about to pass out?”
feels like it sometimes and sometimes too there’s this threshold, or ((like)) reaching a ((“downhill((“)) portion ((—)) still holding, still hanging, everything calming…
exhale when ready…
and let go…
that’s it…
one long-ass pullup maybe four times a day (once or each different grip).
now to help or not to help?
<cleaning toilets…>
((still forgot the morning opening))