(((yesterday…)))
exercise notes:
BeatSaber
Expert+
practice mode
60% on all levels
Following intuition
Houdini Eminem
Similar thinking styles in terms of seemingly multiple coexisting streams or “voices”
“think that shit, I’m’a say that shit…” love that line
egoism of such deep (and honestly extremely self-complimentary) personal application of such things - “oooh… look how this is like me and this is like me… 🤩”🙄😂 (“see that purposeful offset place of the closing quotation? look how creative i get with subtle hidden meanings? 😘”😂
fuck… wandering off…
Abracadabra Lady Gaga
self-involvement of such extensive personalization up to and including “i am the universe taking to itself, thinking about itself, experiencing itself”
obviously massively egoic, and itself nothing more than a thought, but untrue?
(do i elaborate here? only if you think it’ll be fun…)
so pretending, believing that (probably somewhat unconscious stream of selectivity of lyrics is seemingly communicating to me about myself while playing a VR music/dance/movement video game)
Pretty fucking elaborate
And that thinking can create such grand and elaborate versions of itself… the capacity for exploration of “what else? what more?”
Anyway…
Fallout Boy
I Don’t Care
singing “I don’t care what you think as long as it’s about me. The best of us can find happiness in misery…” ego
“But maybe also a potentially fairly healthy perspective (probably minus the “as long as it’s about me” part - that seems… desperate (says thinking))” says thinking still.
Centuries
“just one mistake, is all it will take…”
Fuck! morning routines! Okay… later maybe…
the knowing of the experience of knowing that it isn’t, and it may not ever be possible to know everything…
at some point recently, recalling a list formed earlier this morning of thoughts which occur(r)ed during the playing of BeatSaber…
then wondering, recalling a similar list from yesterday ((link)) morning which is (itself) mostly yet to be explored extensively, if it is or ever will be ((or even could be)) possible to follow all of these paths…
or if most will always remain somewhat mysterious…
(however intimately related ((to one another))
<one sip of teal ((link))…>
(opening ((link))…)
thoughts, sensations, perceptions — phenomena…
(breathe((…)) breathe…)
breathe. notice. rest in awareness…
(no longer than 8:45am)
<8:18 now, set alarm… Lovely Day is the song that will go off sound…>
open, aware, present… whatever is happening… nothing excluded… here/now/this…
<proceeding to clean out robot vacuum brush…>
being is enough… (still kind of an “is it though?”)
… and unconditional y-e-s yes to experiencing it/at
all…
(the written word ‘all…’ landed on its own line. cute :) ((☺️))
chameleon plants…
((now responsible for weeding them from the violet patch; need to remember…))
<giving Zeke (link) his eye drops, petting D (link) (as good of ideas as any), cleaning up a bit… sip of tea… 9 minutes left (that’s cute — 9s :))((☺️))>
i don’t even know what it was now, so i guess the title would be ’20-something-minute tea ((link))’, since that’s how long it steeped while i was doing and thinking about other things…
most of which it seems has already been consciously forgotten, and sometimes remembering as if watching myself from outside. as if i could ever possibly know how i might’ve appeared from outside…
picture? video? song? poem? painting? sculpture? writing? speaking? can any e…
<🎶 “… a lovely daaaayyyy!… :) 😊>